strange career choices

i've been reading through my old blogs. ... i think i'm going to pull some of my entries out and repost them. here we go. one of them:

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strange career choices [august 7th, 2004]

I just filed an application for the NYPD test. I didn't know they only give those admission-tests every 4 or 5 years, and since I've been playing with the thought of being a cop in NYC for a few years (to see what it's like and to get to park whereever I need to) I figured, I better take that test. It might take up to 4 years if and until they assign you. After filing the application I wondered what the hell I'm doing. I'm no cop-material. I'm a pacifist and I don't think that's a helpful character trait to make it in the NYPD. Also, I don't think the pay is too good. And I hate it when people lie or do wrong things when they KNOW it's wrong. All things of a day in the life of a cop, no? So, I suppose, to land this job I need to watch lots of DeNiro and Morgan Freeman movies and work on that bitch-gear I was talking about in an earlier post. I also need to get comfortable with the fact that there will be guns involved in my daily work-load. Guns that might be fired. At me.

... ok. maybe I should just stick with using my camera to shoot. I really miss not being able to find the time for my photography projects anymore. Street-photography is my thing but I can't just walk the streets (usually in the Bronx) with my two little children in tow. sigh. What is a woman to do? Maybe I'm too old for a career change...after all I am turning 30 soon ...aaaaaaahhhhhhhhrgg
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Ha, ha... 30. That was five (5!) years ago. Wow, and I had no clue where my life was going to take me. Now, my kids are in school, I'm divorced, in love with another man, and my photography has developed in other ways.